Missing School

So I've been out of school for a while now and I have to say, it's still weird. Around July, I was thinking about how I would normally be registering for classes around then. I was sad when I didn't get to buy a new planner after the one I had through July was complete. I didn't have a life to plan anymore. In August, I felt like I should have been starting school. In September, I felt like a huge part of me was missing. I felt like I should have been wandering around SDSU, going to classes, hanging out in the HTM office, meeting friends for lunch in East Commons, reading a book and drinking coffee at the turtle pond between classes. Don't get me wrong, there are things about school I don't miss, like tests, and endless projects that required you to coordinate work and class schedules of like 5 other people. I don't miss those things, but most other stuff I miss. Being introduced to new ideas, new books, randomly running into people on campus, especially ones you haven't seen in a long time and getting a chance to catch up with them, those are things I miss.

I've talked to people who graduated before me, whether it's been one year out or ten years out, they all say that sometimes it's still weird for them to not be at school. It gets easier, but it never fully goes away. It's nice to know I'm not alone in these feelings though.

If you know me, you know that I am a quote-a-holic. I have a book filled with quotes from books, movies, tv, famous people, even some song lyrics. They range in topics, majority being on love and friendship, but also on loss, change, school, books, music, a great many topics. In going through it this evening, I was on the quest for a quote that would fit this topic of missing school post graduation, and of course I found one that fits:

"It is indeed ironic that we spend our school days yearning to graduate and our remaining days waxing nostalgic about our school days." ~Isabel Waxman

So true. I know that all during high school I couldn't wait to get to college. Then in college, I couldn't wait to graduate and have the fabulous job, which also meant I had the cute apartment with a pet or two, and go out with friends for drinks after work. In my defense, the economy was a hell of a lot better when I started college, so the idea of having lots of job offers right out of college that would give me the dream job wasn't that far fetched as it is now. But here I am, out of school and I just want to be back there. I wish I could go back. I wish things could be the way they were before. I want a re-do. Maybe not of all 4 years, but at the very least senior year. I had an amazing senior year. I want the rewind button to go back and do senior year over again. Anyone know where to get that? The adult world isn't all it's cracked up to be. It's like Meredith said on "Grey's Anatomy" in season 1, "We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop?"